I discovered the phrase ‘Shiney Aspie’ yesterday.
I guess that applies to me before, I was able to talk, had a decent job with prospects and was able to balance my life. Outwardly I looked ok and ‘normal’.
My inner angst about my poor relationship with my family and lack of ability to have a steady girlfriend still weighed on me, I thought I was awkward, shy and blamed myself for not being able to deal with things.
I was outwardly ok, seemed happy, could do ‘banter’ and drinking and going out. That was sat my best point in my adult life before anxiety and depression got to me.
Shiney? Maybe. But I didn’t know or suspect I had Aspergers and didn’t understand how I was or what I needed.