I’d hope so, but I’ll admit to not thinking I ‘deserve’ anything, could be humbleness or reality’s bite.I don’t think I’ve lost sleep, admittedly I don’t sleep brilliantly but, unless a very clear indicator from someone else, then why would I wonder?I’ve been grateful for kindness shown to me, sometimes it’s for me and boys so I have to be careful not to interpret things wrongly. I’d like to think I’d notice.I don’t know. I miss L and our relationship even as friends and more fondly remember when it was better. I miss the idea of a relationship, but whether that can be is another thing.‘Everything is Temporary’ to an extent, healing from a breakup and dealing with loss are different contexts, I’ll likely carry L with me the remainder of my life, that doesn’t mean I haven’t healed.Hurt and lesson learning. I don’t know. We look and make decisions as we go. I can’t pretend that things don’t hurt but in a lifetime, I’ve hurt others too. Pain is maybe thinking through what’s been done and rationalising it, but we all do that, even on minor things.Okay, it’s my journey and my decisions, whether I’ve ever taken counsel from friends or family is unlikely and I’m not the sort that kicks around my thinking about someone I like or am seeing. I look for support in accepting someone rather than approval for having met them.Maybe, maybe not. Time flows only in one direction and we can’t go back and make fixes. What is gone is gone, unfortunately and can have memories, but be unable to snatch a second back. What’s coming, we have more control over and can try to influence.Questioning whether good enough? I have been good enough before, a number of times, it’s not whether I can, it’s maybe wether that person is there in future. I guess I’ll know when I’ll know and with living with kids I cannot and will not rush into anything.One day. But maybe the dog already does. I can only hope.
Did I win?
No, it was about taking apart and thinking through the statements and they’re graphically very very good and very powerful.
As an enabler or a step toward being ‘better’ or improving, I like them, they’re short, snappy and positive reminders to people.